so I decided the other day that I was going to start recording my everyday life with a camera, the good day, the bad days, every sad moment, every happy I moment I want it all to be on camera and recorded. I've already started recording and watching the videos and so far it looks like a great idea I just cant wait to start putting my videos up on the computer and maybe start a blog or something creative like that, I havent' quite figured out what I want to do with the videos but i'm sure i'll figure it out soon.

The end of the semester is coming and I was supposed to be transferring to another school but it looks like things have changed, and after this semester ends I have really no idea what i'm going to do think i'm going to get another job and just work all the time and pretend like my life isn't wasting away, isn't that terrible? oh well it is what it is I guess.

it tis' official

so i've finally made it official, this semester will be my last semester at bland and i can't say i'm upset about it. i'm planning to transfer to another school, that's still a two-year but more dedicated to what i want to do which is massage therapy, i've done a good three semesters here and my feelings about this school haven't changed at all and instead of me completely dropping out of school and doing nothing, hopefully this is something that works out for me and something i'll actually enjoy i'd hate to have wasted my time again and not to mention more money. However if things do work out, and i end up completing the program and finding a job i'll be able to move out of my moms house and live on my own, i'll have an actual career helping people and i can finally get my life together and not be a bum. Ever since i decided that college really isn't for me i've had the worse fear that i'd drop out, disappointing everyone around me, never figuring out what i want to do with my life and ultimately becoming a bum, that' why with this i plan to put my 100% all, no slacking and procrastinating like i always do, i have to secede no matter what.